So today I have my in-class essay and part of our term paper to be done and I also have a huge math test. I'm going into it not very confident despite the massive amount of studying I did yesterday. I esentially studied until I couldn't keep my eyes open despite drinking energy drinks. I mean it's hard to keep yourself awake when you had get up at 5 am that morning because of your cats who were pounding at the door, had to be at work all day and then come home and just pound on the books. Hopefully I absorbed something to get me a passing grade, but it doesn't look promising. I mean I was dreaming math last night. I didn't even get to study the possibilities for the essay I have. How bad is that? I mean I just wanted to re-read the possible stories/poems we have the choice to write on, but I have to go on with the knowledge I have with me.

The car situation doesn't seem to be getting better with Berek. We can't have the car fixed until after Thanksgiving because my brother is booked until that time. And as far as the new car Berek has been talking about it doesn't appear to be happening just yet. Things have somewhat hit a snag.

I'm so stressed at this time that I'm ready to explode. I feel like I'm going crazy. I'm having horrible anxiety pains in my chest that come and go only when I'm just completely stressing (which is most of the time). I hope that by doing an old trick I did in high school will help. I used to write stories in school. And I have a great story in mind, but unfortunately I don't think I'll be able to release it onto paper until I'm out of school because when I write, it's all I think about, it completely consumes me and I don't think I can afford to do that right now.