I seriously think im crazy Im perfectly happy now... But I guess thats just what happens when Im stressed out... I have a lot of things that are really stressing me out... School,My musik, Religion, Parents, Making sure im still alive... WEll its thougher than I thought it would be fending for myself.. I used to think about how kool it would be to live by myself but now that I do I just feel lonely..I mean this past year has taken a toll on me.. Starting Highschool, Parents getting a divorce, Marie Moving in, My mom getting rid of her boyfriend whom I genuinly (I guess thats how you spell it) loved, and my mom acting crazy trying to live her twenties over again..Moving out of my moms house.. I mean Im only fourteen and all this has happened I just really dont want to progress with anything else right now Unless its with Matt... And I have to deal with Being the religion I am... I will never be able to trick myself into believing im an atheist but christain beliefs have hurt me... I hate church and I hate God at the moment... If there was a god that knows all then why would he make a world and then destroy it... I mean common sense says if your just going to destroy it then why make it in the first place... Well I better leave for tonight... ttyl