Hi well I cant understand why my behaviour patterns have changed so much in like the past few months. If you got me just a small bit mad I would kill someone... im paranoid about everything. I cant go to sleep without looking under everything and only with some source of light on. and I feel out of touch, Im having problems with being completely happy one moment, and really mad another. I dont like pretending that everythings okay, because its not, I cant be crazy, i just cant pretend that im okay, i feel as though i dont care, I really just wouldnt mind hurting them. I feel evil and I actually kinda of like that because im makes mefeel powerful and then again I hate it. Because it makes me feel like two people are in me, the outside part of me is happy and normal, and the inside is where I could see killing someone and thinking it was funny. I swear im not joking. But i dont like this because I know that its bad to feel like this... oh yeah ill be fifteen in three days!