well my father just called to wake me up. But I really dont want to go, its not appealing in the least, all of my friends arent here they are suspended so Im not going to be entertained in the least... yay!
I'd rather just sleep for the rest of my life, its more interesting in my head than in real life. Its like in a dream you can do whatever you want, impossible things but in real life things seem dull and uninteresting. And its that way with stories too, Im an avid reader and I enjoy fantasy/horror books and when I get a peek into the lives of the characters in the story, i look at my own life, I have no magick, and I know that nothing that interesting is ever going to happen because it isnt true.
Its kind of sad when you have that kind of yearning, to be so much more than you are, but you know its never going to happen because good things only happen to rich/ smart people. They never look at the average person.
I know I use reading and sleeping, and music as a form of escapism but if there is nothing else to be interested in then why doesnt everyone take up the good old religion of escapism (meaning just live in their minds).