Have you ever notice, how much pain love causes. I regret what I did more than anything in the world, because I loved him, I loved him with all my heart. And I shouldnt have done what I did, But I never did anything with his friends, NEVER. If I had said any sexual comments it was because I was playing around. Yeah I did have a small crush on Josh, but that was when we had not talked for what almost a month. Yeah I dated Josh R. but I needed someone, I was scared. I know what I did was wrong, and I told him. But he didn't understand that I had thought he had left me. I tried calling Sarah, several times over the Summer and I only reached her twice. Both regaurding Britton. Its the worst pain in the world, to have your life fall apart in front of your very eyes. But what do you do? Die or live. I wish I could end everything, I really do and eventually I will die, but I cannot put the gun to my head. I could overdose but thats a pretty cowardly way to go. I just dont know what to do...