Okay, my (parents, and others have read this and I want to make a few things clear about the things I say).... Most of the time when I'm writing the things I write, it's when I am furious... and about to the point of that's the only way of letting off steam... Its not that I really hate you, or that I'm really mad at you... Or that I'm really suicidal or anything like that. It's just that I'm tired, and I'm usually upset when I write things... It's just like how some people read, sleep.... etc... it's a release.. I disappear into my words and most of the time I dont even realize that what I'm writing is so hateful... I have to admit that at the moment I do feel like that.. But other times, i'm not lieing I'm just venting my frustration.....