well i haven't written in here for quite a while, and I feel kind of guilty because I have forgotten about it. I think I've had this thing for a good two years now, maybe a bit more.... probably more like three. Well anyway, yeah I'm alive, unfortunatly. And I'm a happier person supposedly. But yeah, I miss my best friend. He's not here anymore, and everything just kind of seems empty without him. I mean I miss talking to him for days and just getting across to him. And you know in some sort of way I think I was in love with him. He was my mexican jew. But I guess at some point we must all go our seperate ways. Well yeah hopefully I'll find my way through all of this. Well next may I'm going to SCAD (savannah college of art and design) and this march I'm enlisting in the military. Oddly enough, due to my anti-government thing. But yeah, why not, good steady source of income, and stability. The thing that I've been struggling to have for a while now. um yeah other than that, i have really been just lost.

But I'm curious to read all of my past blogs. I don't remember most of them due to temporary lack in judgement and character. If that makes any sense....