To admit that I miss her. She was great, then again completely infuriating. I don't know what that has to do with anything but I guess i'm really very hurt by what she did to me. I want to fix things in my inner heart, but I guess Its also distorted by the fact that I have too much pride, I don't even want to admit it to myself. But who knew that being cut so deeply would, make me want to fix things. I've made some really fucked up decisions, and have done some really stupid things. But overall I believe that I'm a pretty good person. Our situation doesn't mean exactly that I want to let her get close enough to hurt me again but rather that I need to clear my conscience. In the past I've made rather irrational decisions and ended up hurting people that I cared a great deal about. And I'm still trying to make up for that, because I really care about those people. Well, I'm having problems focusing...