I can't believe that we are coming up on our first year. It just seems like yesterday you were asking me out. Wow, could you believe how much life has changed for us, mainly you. When I met you, you were about to be a senior in college, working at CVS and the liquor store. And I was a junior about to be a senior in highschool, now you are my US soldier, I'm so proud of you baby. I know that you didn't necessarily want to do it, but it was a leap that you had to take in your situation. I'm so excited about you coming home in September, I hate you being away; but I guess thats something that I will have to learn to deal with. Now that I'm through with Highschool, I look at myself and I think what am I going to do with my life, And i just hope that where ever life may take me that you're by my side. I have never completely trusted someone as much as I trust you. I not only trust you in this relationship, but I would trust you with my life. I know that you can't read this now, but I'm probably going to write this in letter form tomorrow when I wake up. Last night I had the most amazing dream, even though it made me so sad waking up. I wrote you about it and sent it today. Ironically you have changed everything about me in ways that I could have not imagined. You've taken me out of the depression that seemed to completely consume my life, I'm now happier than I have ever been, and even your aggravating paranoia isn't that bad after all. (But that might just be because I miss you so much) You've knocked a sense of reality into my head, I know sometimes I make stupid decisions and you've taught me to think before I do anything that I may regret. I often think of where I would be without you and it scares me to think that the path that I was going down was to complete and utter self destruction. I would love to be with you for many many years to come and I know that I'm still young, hell you are too, and I may not know what the hell i'm talking about, but I do know that I really truly love you. your an amazing person Matthew, and I have so much respect for you. I can't wait to see you graduate from Basic Training, and go through AIT I want to see you excel at everything you do at life, and go through everything with the same determination, you NEVER give up on anything, and I think thats one of the traits that I love most about you. When you set your mind to something you never give in and you never give up (unless it has to do with me!) :) I know that this is the best thing for us, but my god over the last month and almost a half I have cried more times than I could ever have fathomed, I miss having my companion, my bestfriend, my boyfriend, my future everything. I would kill just to hear your voice right now, and to feel at least a hug. I'm not a slobbering teenage girl and you know this about me, I'm not snuggly or emotional (in a good sense) most of the time. But I do love you more than air, your the highlight of my day, and I depend on your letters just as much as you do on mine. I love you angel.

Kailey!