Okay, I know where I'm going wrong, no one has to tell me "Kailey, make up your mind with what you want to do in life", there are too many Idea's, thoughts, opinions, passions; that I never really sit down and focus on one thing.
For some reason, I always try to put myself down, in order to avoid failure, and that's just not a healthy way to live; I know that I'm meant to do something big, change the world in some way. I think everyone is meant to; its just up to you whether you want to let yourself succeed; no one in this life is born a failure. But I don't understand why, I have so many hopes, and dreams, and I can't follow through on anything; no matter whether I'm completely passionate about it or not. Its not about the work that I have to do, to get to the position that I want to, but its because I always tell myself "I can't do this, I'm not going to be able to do what I want to do with my life." I want to be positive, I want to change, I want to grow to become a successful, confident, person. I'm not interested in letting myself down anymore. I've ruined so many opportunities in life, because of my fears, that I really have failed. I've let myself down. And I have become a weak person, though I know I'm not. I know that I can become better.
I never realized how much I've grown up in the past year or so. Life isn't a fairytale, I'm not a victim, I'm not this person that just lets life pass me by. I'm not some freak, that is an "individual" everyone feels the same, there is nothing unique about that; but the ability to find a fault and change it; is what will make me better.