Finally a painful admission, I've tried to write this three or four times, and I keep trying to find a way to make this not sound so pathetic. I have become so isolated from Life, that I have no friends. I play on the computer all day, I sleep, and I hang out with my boyfriend from (5-8).
I have never really made friends very easily, and the one's that I have weren't really my friends. In highschool, I only really ever got along with guys; and they never really wanted to be friends with me. I usually came off really strong on people and they either thought I was weird, or I was so painfully shy that I couldn't go up to someone and be-friend them. I was always afraid of rejection, so I always settled for the people that were really quite mean to me. I never really could act myself around them, because I was too afraid they wouldn't want to be around me. And though I'm not very social, I hated being alone.
So basically now that I'm out of Highschool, I've really accomplished nothing but to drive myself even further into my shell. I don't even know how to keep conversation going anymore (and I love to talk) and I don't really know how to find people who have something in common with me. I want someone that I can confide in and I can help with their problems. I want someone that I can spend time with; but it never seems to work out for me. And it's really gotten me a little down; am I really that bad of a person? Oh well.