It seems like everything in our lives' have changed. We've become different people, with different thoughts and ideas about how the world should be. But recently I've been thinking a lot about you. And though Matt may be furious at me for writing this; I believe you deserve to know how I feel.
You have been with me through everything, you stood by my side when I believed that no one else was around. You listened to me; and you let me cry to you for hours. When reality started to slip away, you always stood by and let me take it out on you. When I felt like I couldn't let go of my habits, you talked me through them; even when I never remembered the conversations the next day. Every time a bad relationship fell apart; everytime someone hurt me; every time I let myself get put into a bad position; you were there.
I feel like the reason you stopped talking to me was because I put all of this uncessary stress on you; and never stopped to think of how it was affecting you. I was so selfish that I feel like all I could do was talk; and never listen to you. These are the things that I always meant to say and never did:

1.) you are a wonderful person; don't ever think that you aren't. if ever you had an ego, it was well justified.
2.) you are brilliant; I've never had so many interesting and creative conversations with a person in my life. I learned so much about myself, and how my thoughts evolved with you.
3.) you are the musician that I always wanted to be; you are an extremely talented musician and singer. I was always a bit jealous of your abilities, you could always learn the songs that were too complicated for me, and you could stick with it; instead of getting pissed off and quitting (like me)
4.) you are the best listener; when I cried to you about the things that were going on in my life, you stood there and talked me through them, and every time I talk to you, I can't help but go back to those days.
5.) you were the only friend that I had when life fell apart for me; when everyone else gave up on me, you were there to help me through them.
6.) you never judged or criticized me, until I attacked you :D
7.) I feel like you are so way above my intellegence; I feeled stunned by how smart you are.

Can you believe that I've known you for going on four years, and though we haven't really been close for quite some time, when think about you, I still associate you as my best friend.
Can you believe that every time we contact each other, it's when we are both thinking about the other.

well known facts that we've covered: :D
1.) we are all a marble in god's pocket
2.) there are; in fact things that watch and talk to you in the dark.
3.) putting Marilyn manson and Led Zeppelin together does sound pretty awesome.
4.) Though I talk about pushing you off the pier; I never really mean it.
5.) black dye on your Grandma's chair WILL piss her off! even though it was a little funny I must admit.
6.) when your mom played with my hair, and we both know she hates me. my first thought, was oh god this lady is going to kill me
7.) yes SALAD FINGERS still makes me giggle
8.) jet puffed marshmellow's and pinecones do also! (potato (^.^)
9.) the shack still haunts my memories, and when I think of that day, it is the best day of my life
10.) I'm still in love with Louisiana, running away, going to a crossroads, and selling my soul to myself.

You've helped me grow into this person that I've become, crazy or not, you've made me smile, laugh, cry, fall asleep... and so many more feelings all at one time.

Though life may change constantly, its important to remember the people in our live's that have helped us become who we are. And you happen to be a VERY VERY Big part of who I am. I just wanted you to know how much I thank you! for everything you've done for me. And how close to my heart you'll always be. You really are my best friend.