Today I woke up full of energy and I really feel like I'm gaining a sense of myself again. I think the stronghold that my medicine had me under is finally letting up and the sun is finally shining down on me again. I am starting to be able to think clearly again!

Yesterday my mother gave me a brilliant idea, and she wanted me to volunteer to help someone in the community. Well, Maybe I took her advice a little seriously. I signed up for the Save the Animal program, Habitat for Humanity, and I will be tutoring students on my free time. I'm also feeling like I'm ready to step out there and go to school, I know that I'm intelligent enough, I just have never had much confidence.

I have been going through withdrawl from my medicine, and I'm going to admit that its been pretty hard, I've been feeling completely emotional, no drive, no goals, and today I decided to write down everything I did in a day, if I felt like I was seeing everything that I was doing in a day, maybe I could change some of my bad habits, and work on and improve others!

I have never been a very religious person, I've always questioned other's beliefs and ideas on the world. But maybe that is truly what my life is lacking. So I picked up this book that has been laying around my house for a while called Life Without Strife by Joyce Meyer; and I've only heard great things about her. And though I'm not religious, and I don't necessarily believe in a god, maybe I can apply and look into another option, and expand my mind, instead of becoming closed minded.