10 THINGS THAT I HATE ABOUT MYSELF

10.) I always write in fragments, I can never follow through on a thought. My grammar is atrocious. Everytime I sit down and think that I may write something worth reading, I give up because I think that it'll be boring to whomever reads it.

9.) Regardless of what weight I am, I will always hate my physical appearance. No matter what, I could be 90lbs and still feel fat in my own skin. I hate what I look like!

8.) I can never figure out what I want to do in life; music, art, teaching, Doctor. I can never be happy with one thing in life, as soon as I start on one thing I get bored with it and move on.

7.) That I can't find a college that I think that I will get accepted to, I graduated High School with a Technical Diploma; and I don't think I'll get accepted to any University, so I gave up trying.

6.) That I can't find a job that I can stick with, every job I've ever had, I have really SUCKED at it! Seriously!

5.) That I don't really come by friends very often. Mainly because for the most part I'm anti-social, and its PAINFUL for me to talk to new people. And even old people, most of them think I'm WAYYYYY out there. It's not like I mean to be weird I'M JUST MADE THAT WAY.

4.) I always feel like I'm on the outside; I always feel like people hate me, or I'm not good enough to be around people. I feel like people are always judging me (I know its a part of life) Even people that I have managed to befriend, I feel like I have nothing in common with.

3.) I hate that I'm not more intelligent, I hate that I can't hold a conversation without turning it into a debate. I feel intimidated by people who are more intelligent than me.

2.) I hate that I believe in nothing, even though I sleep with a nightlight on all the time because i'm afraid of the dark. SERIOUSLY, I don't believe in anything that I can't see or feel, and yet I'm afraid something is going to get me in the dark.

1.) I hate that I cannot run away from the past, I hate that I can't let go of anything. I know that they only way to move forward is to let go, and I can't do it. It's just not who I am.

EXTRA:
0.) I hate that I'm so negative, I'm never happy with anything; I could win a billion dollars and still turn it into the worst thing that ever happened to me, I hate that I'm a miserable soul! I want to be happy all the time, but I know that is an impossibility.

Hey look, I know it's a confidence issue, I accept that I have a confidence issue, I know that there really is no way to fix a broken confidence; and I know that I may as well get over that. WELLLLL look at number 1. :D