Thou shalt not use *my* dogs to attract women.

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On that note, is it possible to die from cat allergies? Because I feel like I'm almost there... I am now confined to the bedroom of my beautiful new apartment because my guy's beasts are just more than I can handle. He bathed them today to see if that helps at all, but I'm not very optimistic. Had I health insurance I would try allergy shots, but I don't think that I can afford them. I sound like I have emphysema, and I can't exert myself at all without having a panic attack because I'm unable to catch my breath. It's absolutely terrifying. The constant cold-like systems I could almost live with, but the not breathing is just too much. I'm absolutely miserable...

I'd love to say that I love living downtown, and I probably *could* say that I love it...if I could catch my breath...

My Sweet is now out on the town and I'm trying to study and breathe. He says that if I decide I can't live with them he will get rid of them...but how can I do that? I know how much I love my beagles (who are both happily snoring on my bedroom floor)...so how can I tell him, "hey, I can't live like this...please...for the love of GOD...please find a home for them that is far, far, FAR away from me!" Then he has to go and say all the right things, like "You mean more to me than they do. I'm worried about your health. I want you to be happy. Blah, blah, blah, blah." He's so perfect it's infuriating. Makes things so much more difficult...

I just...I want them gone. But wanting them gone makes me feel so awful because I love him and I want him to be happy and I want him to keep his kittens...

Crap. Living with someone kind of sucks!

On that note...Two more weeks until finals are over and I can hopefully have a few weeks of peace. I really want to quit school...I pretty much hate it...but everyone keeps reminding me that it's free and I have to stay with it, so I'm really trying. I feel like it will be a miracle if I ever finish.

Better go finish my Note (due Monday) so that I can study from Employment Law and Con Law in peace. I'm not so worried about Professional Responsibility or Evidence, my last two finals. Wedged somewhere in all that hell is my last birthday in my twenties... I can't wait to spend it studying and hiding from cats.