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Wife of 32 years, mother of 2, grandmother of 3, Government worker eligible to retire in 5 years, crocheter of 34 years; hopeful writer; people watcher; reader of much; lover of cats,dogs,horses and most four legged animals;and much more to learn about myself.
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He got jealous yesterday, a coworker mentioned that it looked like I have lost weight-yes I have, don't know how much since appetite changed with illness. Hubby was working from home and called just to say hi. I mentioned that a coworker said that. He took it that it was a male coworker-and got a little huffy-then I said who it was. It was a female that I work with all the time. He took it that I was delibrately trying to make him jealous. HUH? It lead to a big argument. So what if it was a guy.

Come to find out, it was that I didn't who it was right up front and he has always had a fear of me leaving. For 30 years? Teri input? Manipulation? when I finally got him to stop putting his fear up front I told him that if I continue losing weight, how is he going to react if I get compliments? His reaction "I don't know" Well, for someone who wants me to wear more risque clothing, he better find out.

I have dropped 2 dress sizes since I moved here-actuall within the past 6months, and pants that I was wearing are baggy, and pants that were snug are fitting loose. Good for me, I am working on it. I don't eat as much, if I know we are going out to eat for supper, I eat a light lunch. Salads are a good lunch. For instance, he packed a lunch for me today-leftover crispy duck & rice (chinese take out) and 4 choclate chip cookies he baked last night (he ate 6 I ate 2 last night) I will eat about half the duck-throw out the rest and will share the cookies-may eat 1-or keep in desk if no one is here to share with. We are going out to eat tonight-he just sent me info on restaurant-good sounding place. Has had good reviews.

After arguement was resolved last night, he went to find me 100 square graph paper-I need it for afghan-I need to plot design from here on out. He picked up subs for last nights supper-these heavy discussions really eat up time and stop cooking. He stopped at lane bryant and bought me a tunic top that is sort of mod, I am not 100% sure I like it, but he does, so it is being worn today, with the necklace he bought to go with it. Necklace will be worn tonight. Can't wear with badge around my neck-tangles. This repeats his apology gifts-this is pattern he use to do. I recognized this early in our relationship.
Before I became a doormat. Now I have to really learn how not to argue or how do disengage the arguement. That is the hard part.

But should I tell him that the first thing that someone said to me this morning was I like your dress! And it was a male that I see everyday-and I don't work with, and normally he only says hi.


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