Didn't want to wake up this morning! Neither did DH! Tomorrow no alarm clock! Didn't help that DS texted us just as we were falling asleep-no emergency-he just didn't realize that we were at 10pm-he was at 7pm. (AZ doesn't put their clock ahead!)

I made it a complete pay period without taking any leave, and 15 days without calling out. And without feeling like I needed too-that is the wonder. Even when DH was a little off. Now, did I want to stay in bed longer, HE!! yes, but that is a different matter.

I made up a work to do list for today. Have lots of little things to do, as well as sitting at two secretaries desks-and doing payroll time-but since most employees input their own time now, I just review it-and then I am done. Takes half the time it use to. Managers still review it too!

Dh worked from home.

Yesterday I received an enlightening text from DH-it explains so much about why he gets so scared and off kilter when I get frustrated or angry. And why he goes off even more. "I have had an epiphany in haw to describe how I am feeling - what's its all about. I am constatly striving to make you happy. When you are happy, we are happy. When you ae upset, frustrated, or angry, I am scared. I failed some how. I have been doing this for decades and it works- we're still together- RIGHT! Lately I am failing, to some measure, 4-10+ times a day. I am frightened!"

Oh, wow. That means that he reads too much into my frustration and it becomes a vicious circle-he becomes afraid and reacts to it in anger. At least now I know and I can deal with it. My response to this email, when I finally read it was " DH, thank you for sharing this. Just because I am upset(temporarily) does not meant that underneath I am not happy. I love you , and those little upsets happen to everybody. i do things that make you upset, but that does not mean that I am trying to make you unhappy."

When I got home, we had a nice calm talk. I have been reacting to him with frustration alot over the past few days. And it has all been minor things-not over money, work or even time apart. When we tried to break it down, I told him that yesterday with him working from home, gave me a chance to 'miss him'. And I looked forward to seeing him. It has been a long time since I could say that. He mentioned the knitting classes and free knit-I told him he texts me during those times so I really am not there on my own. 1 1/2 hours is not along time. 11 hours is. I don't know if he got it-I hope so.