So came home tonight and we actually talked calmly. He does hear that I don't have the "loving" feeling anymore. He doesn't even feel friendship from me. I told him that I am tired of it. He said that on the night that I first told him about the feelings change, he saw a look of freedom in my face. We have decided to go to marriage counseling through the Church, in fact have an appointment with the pastor on Wednesday evening. He believes my future will be ok. I told him that I will not be asking for alimony at all, but we need to get rid of the IL house. He is afraid that it will hurt his career. He even mentioned his credit cards versus mine, but not my fault. His choice to load them up and use them.

For now, it is status quo. Separate bedrooms. And no matter what, finances will be handled differently. I told him that there is possibly a lot of resentment and trust issues that will have to be resolved; a lot of work by both of us. And that I don't know which way it will go. I also told him that I had told the kids that things were real rocky and I was thinking of leaving. You know what is surprising me- no histronics. No tears, no but I love you, so, he knows this is really deep.