OK, we talked. I stated my case, How I felt, what was happening. So today I get an e-card from him. Here is what it said: You have always been the only star shining in my universe. My life without you in it is a farce. Standing shoulder to shoulder together has allowed us to conquer almost everything thrown at us . I cannot fathom never being able to say 'I love you" to you again because such an event can never be written into the grand scheme. I love you. B.

What part do you not understand? I am not that partner standing shoulder to shoulder anymore!! Not that we were ever truly that way, most times, I bore the brunt of it. Though not to hear him, he had all the stress.

Oh, well. I should have expected this. It has been a week since the blow up. He does not expect me to last this long. And yet, I am still lasting. And in fact, this card reinforced my feeling.