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Wife of 32 years, mother of 2, grandmother of 3, Government worker eligible to retire in 5 years, crocheter of 34 years; hopeful writer; people watcher; reader of much; lover of cats,dogs,horses and most four legged animals;and much more to learn about myself.
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Decision Made

It has been a long time coming. I saw my doctor yesterday with the VERY NASTY LETTER in hand. First he looked at the hospital paperwork. Then he sat down and we talked and talked.

The last time I had this letter he had no problem with me trying to continue working. This time he asked how many days I have been missing. 5 a month? I answered 2 to 3 every other week or more. Different things. Migraine, dizzy spells, IBS, Diverticulitis, Cellulitis, and then any bug that happens to come around, along with just plain not feeling good or being extremely tired.

His response-last time he had to fight to have me stay and work. This time, he wants me to medically retire. He has enough documentation to support medical retirement. He said a vacation will not be enough to get my body back to health. I need 2-3 years of rest, exercise and taking care of myself. And then I will find myself in a better place. He also said that the stress of trying to make it in everyday has actually made my conditions worse. And would continue to do so.

So an decision has been made. I will be seeking medical retirement. Now, if I can get the powers that be to stop negative action and let me retire at my pace-9/30 as a deadline, maybe it will be fine.

B is not the happiest at this time. It can take up to 18 months for funds to start coming in. This will be the first time since 1988 that he has not had my income to rely on. And he went into panic mode. That he had to be "totally responsible for all of it!" After a few minutes of this BS, I finally yelled back, "There was a time when I was totally responsible for all of it and we had 2 more mouths to feed!"

That took him by surprise. Shut him up too. We can get help from the Church, I am sure. B was looking at us having to move and him having to travel in the rain etc in his wheelchair. Of course this is all about him.

He is calmer today. But last night it was "You will have all the time you want to crochet." "You will have all the time you want to read." And on and on he went. I was ready to throw something at him-no I didn't. I answered, "Yes, I will have all the time I need to get healthy, to exercise, to clean the house, to rest, and maybe finish the two books I have started writing!" That finally shut him up.

But changes are coming and they are scary.

Now I have to do some research. I just hope they let me do it nicely. I have given over 28 years to this agency.


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