Just returned from K & J's wedding shower. It was lots of fun to see them again, as well as all the Virtualites that have been so missing from my life as of late. On the drive home I've realized that I actually am pretty good at making friends among the folks that I'm working with. That's always been kind of one of my percieved weaknesses in myself is that I'm afraid i'm not good at making friends. It's been dispelled and that's a happy thing.

As i stated in my livejournal ( http://www.livejournal.com/~incarnate ) I've discovered just how trendy and "hip" journaling is. This is really starting to bug me, though I don't know why. LP's observation on men's postings vs. women's postings is an interesting one, and possibly why journaling is so seductive to men (though it doesn't exactly explain it's popularity among women). I don't know why this bugs me. Why do I have this innate distrust and hatred for popular things? I've been defeating my urges more and more recently, with video gaming, my movie habits, reading,and all sorts of minor things in my life. But I'm still just as far as ever from discovering my core issue with populism. And the fact stands that I'm not a social anti-establishmentariansit, it's more a cultural anti-establishmentarianism (I can't believe I actually used that word twice in a sentence) Perhaps it's a stunted teen rebellion that's just taking forever to wear itself out. That really seems to make sense, especially given my otherwise non-rebelious teen years. Perhaps instead of rebellling against my parents, I chose to rebel against my peers.

Ok, actually that explanation makes so much sense there's really nothing I can do to refute it, so I guess that cuts this entry short for the evening. Oh well. Maybe we'll discuss possible solutions tomorrow.