I just realized that I forgot to switch my journal over to my new sash color.

I am officially "Half-Black Sash" in Hwa Rang Do. The name is sort of a misnomer at this point, because the sash is all black with a red stripe. So, it's not really Half-Black, but this color scheme seems to fit pretty well, all black with a little red. :)

I've been a little disinterested recently in HRD. I talked to Jenn about it last night and I think it's because in the last couple of weeks I've managed to bang some people up during class accidentally. So, emotionally I'm not excited about going to class because I feel so bad about hurting people and I don't want to do it again.

I'm a big guy (6'2", 240 lbs.) so sometimes even when I try to go easy, it's still a lot harder than most people train. :( In addition, the circular kicks and strikes and such are designed to use the power of rotational momentum to provide a great deal of force with a minimum amount of effort.. so that's even worse for me.

In the end, I'm still going because I have to get through these feelings, I'm just doing my best to avoid actually touching anyone.