(or, "The Year in Review")

This has been one crazy, amazing year, and I've loved it. I learned some things, and though Miss Otis may regret some things, I certainly don't.

1. Breaking up is hard to do. (Make it funky now!) (and if ANYONE gets that reference, I will marry them). I had a whole entry written to wrap up that whole experience, but just about everything in it fits under the what I leanred heading, so it gets summarized here. Saturday I will perform the universal sign of closing a chapter in life, the dropping off of his stuff. Though I have moved forward, I still miss talking to him cause he is fun and full of ideas and I thought we were a good match. Ultimately, I broke a heart and had mine broken, so I guess that all balanced out, cosmically.

2. The wisdom of youth, the folly of age. More importantly, I learned to remember some stuff. I think as I've gotten older and figured out more of what I like in a guy, my dating pool has narrowed considerably. I find I can tolerate fewer and fewer people in a romantic sense. Though this doesn't panic me yet, I definitely did get to the point where the opportunities for love seemed really limited. Being dumped so quickly made me try to see things from his point of view, in an attempt to figure the whole thing out. This, in turn, made me remember the feeling that my options for love were unlimited and that it could just drop in on me anytime. I had lost that somewhere along the way, and I'm glad to have that optimism back. I may not believe in monogamy, but I still believe in love, very much.

3. Sex can mean a lot of different things, all of them wonderful. This year, its been pure love, its been a way to say goodbye, its been a way to help someone through a tough time, its been pure passion and lust. Each one was perfect in their own way. I adore sex in its many forms and will continue to seek out new experiences, while still striving to maintain my non-slutty status. Though I've experienced more naked men this year than I have in like the last 10 years combined, there is still so much I haven't done.

I love my friends. I love my lovers. I love my experiences. Though I may not have enjoyed all of them, each step has led me here and will take me where I'm going. I have hope. My life is small but I love it.