my son is supposed to start a new job today cooking at waffle house.

at some point last night he hopped a fence and thinks his foot is broken.

i'll be taking him to our "indigent" hospital after i drop katherine at school to have it looked at.

it's our university hospital. it's a wonderful teaching hospital. it's just that you can spend, literally, more than a day in their emergency room waiting to be seen, especially if there are car crashes around town. being a not for profit hospital, it's where everyone goes who doesn't have insurance. they see you and send you bills until you die.

i guess what pisses me off is his lack of maturity and responsibility, once again. he's been without a job for almost 4 weeks after having left the last one after 2 weeks with no notice. he had a misunderstanding with his boss at that one. so he said.

i don't understand his need to go out every night running around all over town. maybe it's normal for 21 year old guys to do dumb stuff like this, but it seems he should have more of a sense of responsibility.

ah hell, what's the point of griping about it? what's done is done. i hope he's ok, i really do. we've got some talking to do either way.

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i made my motions at the board meeting last night to unseat the two remaining good ol boys. i had prior agreement from the rest of the voting board members that this is what we should do. two of them caved and voted against unseating them. so they're still on the board, gloating i'm sure.

go figure. why is it that i continue to be disappointed in people? why is it that i expect people to do what they say they will do?

to say i'm a little bothered this morning would be an understatement. i dreamed about that damn board all night long after going to bed around 1am, unable to get to sleep in the first place because of it.

why do i bother?

i'm still glad i made the motions because it was the right thing to do. i told my residents that i'd do it, and i did. i may feel a bit defeated and let down, but at least i can still look at my mug in the mirror this morning and know i did what was right, despite the outcome.

so i will hold my head up and move forward. there is still much work to be done that i can play a positive part in, altho the closed meetings with the board members may be a bit uncomfortable from here on out.

i am so thankful to the members who voted to unseat them. one guy is actually friends with them, but he told them that given the lack of trust and respect the homeowners and residents have for them, that it was time for them to move on. and one of the guys who voted against unseating them told them that he thought the proper thing would be for them to resign, but he couldn't vote to unseat them without proof they'd done anything criminal.

they are guilty of mismanagement at the least, and guilty of embezzellment at worst. but we can't find the proof of criminal wrongdoing. many documents are missing, months worth of receipts and check registers are simply gone.

and now this crap with my son this morning.

i'm feeling deflated, can ya tell?

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on a more positive note, yesterday was a lovely day. i painted, i had coffee with no tummy upset, i watched a wonderful movie on IFC, i cooked, i read, not to mention the 3 inches of rain we got that we so desperately needed. i had the whole day to myself. and i got some very kind and supporting words from my husband and dad and neighbors last night too.

i'll hold onto that day for a long time. i haven't had a good one like that since i can remember.

in fact, i'm feeling better already remembering the good, and not concentrating on all the bad.

i hope you all have as good a day everyday as i had yesterday!!! xoxo