it's been over a week now since i pissed my brother off, and he's leaving me alone.

altho i did have a dream night before last that he was here, and he was eating all of the food in the house, like sherman marching thru georgia, ya know? and he wouldn't leave. i had to call the police to get him to leave.

i think i managed to make my mother mad enough that she won't bother me, at least for a while.

we were going to drive to canada at the end of the month, spend a day in niagara falls, and bring her back with us.

with everything that's gone on here, emotionally and physically, i just felt like i couldn't do it. seriously, trapped in the car with her for 10 hours?

i called her thursday evening to let her know, and she was not a happy camper. i also told her what transpired between my brother and i, and she says she can't be worried about that.

exactly, mom. now you're getting it.

she is a bit concerned though, that with him having no one closeby that he can talk to and see, that he'll starve to death or some such thing.

i told her that the hope center offers 2 meals a day and a a plastic mattress to sleep on at night. he is not my responsibility.

she is pissed that we're not coming up there, and even more pissed because i offered her no details as to why. i simply told her that i had my own emotional housekeeping to get in order, and that i couldn't financially or emotionally afford a trip like that right now.

she can buy a plane ticket for $160 like she did when she flew up a month ago. we would spend more than that in gas, and of course, she hasn't offered any financial repayment for any of the trip either. that's not even the point, but still, money is tight.

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i'm still feeling a bit funky. katherine has been sick all weekend. there's a thing going around here it seems. i know several families who've had something. but no big deal. just a viral thing from what we can tell, so she'll be fine, probably today, definitely tomorrow.

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i'm sitting on the patio in a jacket, and wrapped up in my favorite throw. it's cool here, was cool all day yesterday, even with a bright blue sky and lots of sunshine. i sat in the car at the park on the phone and talked to a friend for a long time yesterday, and had to keep rolling the windows up and down to get warm/cool off. even had to close a window in the house yesterday - we were all freezing.

yup - fall is definitely my favorite time of year.

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not much else going on, at least, not that i want to broadcast here!! *heh*

i love ya, ma peeps. smoochies and hugs to all!!