so.........., jan first is gonna be one long damn day. the cost of smoking has forced me to make a decision. I gotta quit. theres no way around it, theres no option, theres no debate--I gotta quit.

vic is gonna quit too, so at least I aint going it by myself. misery loves company and all that bullish...lol...but I think between the both of us we can muster the will-power and make it happen. I sure as hell hope so.

I quit a few times. once for almost 9 months. damn shame I started back up again, but at the time it seemed like the thing to do.

vic has never quit--she has no clue what its like. its bad day one, its worse day two, and its a lot worst day three---etc, etc, etc. even when I quit that time, even after several months, I wanted a fucking cig in the worst way. when a 'trigger' hit me, I almost drooled. so when I got a job selling hardware in a 'smoking allowed' building, I started back up within days...like I said, damn shame.

course, cigs didnt cost $4 a pack then. and thats the cheapies-USA full flavor. I switched about two months ago...up to that I smoked winston lights, ummm...since I was a sophmore, which would have been 1976, 33 years not counting the limited time[s] I'd quit. sheesh, wonder what size in-ground pool Id have right now had I spent that money on other things...

my mom remembers buying cigs for 20 cents a pack, I can remember 45 cents in a cig machine when I used to do a ciggie run for her. and now they're 10 times as much. I aint making ten times the wages, the math simply doest work.

all I can say is wish me and vickey luck. come about noon jan first, we're both gonna need it

:p <---thats a cig, not a tongue