Some years ago Tommy found Sun Bear somewhere...I guess it was on line. I don't know how he found his way to him but he believed in him and went to study Sun Bear's Medicine Wheel ways.

He met him in two places, one was at the Lama Foundation north of Taos, New Mexico and the other was at a place in Massachusettes, a retreat place along the Mowhawk Trail.

We were there on Lama Mountain when Sun Bear died and that night Tom said the winds were so strong that he felt Sun Bear had visited him there. He saw things in the sky that he could not explain but felt were proof of Sun Bear's presence.


Lama, too, was where he met a girl named Dana who was from Traverse City Michigan. She is still there in New Mexico and her heart beats with the same pain as we feel as she is missing Tom along with us.

Words have always been how I could most clearly communicate to others, but they are failing me now.

My big, soft-hearted brown-eyed Tom can't be gone, I feel him in my kitchen. It is built right above the place he selected as his power spot. Sun Bear told him he had such a place and to go home and find it. There are three of them here, and the one that he made a medicine wheel on is right under the place where he flashed a white light for me 8 days after he passed.

Then, in that same room, yesterday, I awoke to find that the television set was turned on. The remote was not available to my dogs, so they could not have stepped on it and inadvertently activated it. I checked with my husband about the previous night, had he, after our Celebration of the Life of Thomas John Scott Brown, and before he went back to Ypsi he knows for certain, he says, that he did not even turned it on, much less left it on.

So when I awoke and found it (the power)turned on, I turned it off (cut the power), but I believe that Tommy had turned it on, near his power spot. A few hours later the power to the tv was on again. So I watched it for a while and then my brother called me and we talked for a long time. I had turned the sound off (placed the system on "mute" but did not turn it off (the electrical power). It was turned off when I looked again. So, I think Tommy was getting me near that phone I usually ignore so that I would talk to my brother. We had not spoken in years.

And what of these things? I don't know. I am so busy missing my son I don't know what to even begin to make of it.