Just that. Blah. Yesterday's headbutting with the boss really took it out of me.

My problem is simple: while I no longer identify myself by my job, my job does define me. I used to be the opposite, "Hi, I'm Taer, and I'm a sysadmin at Sun Microsystems." Now, I recognize the job to be just a necessary part of me, but it is the largest part.

So, if I'm not motivated, then it becomes the longest stretch...

Maybe this will pass. I hope so. I usually like being excited, helpful, etc. However, right now I'm feeling less than that. I'm just interested in putting in my time, then moving on.

Unfortunately, I just started this position, so I can't even ask to interview for another half year or so. So I'm stuck here, and I don't like it.

I love my job. Well, parts of it. I like the feeling that I can make a difference in the parts that I don't like. However, I don't like my boss, and that's a large portion of my job, so it's just not fun anymore.

Hey, I'm lucky to have one. It's a nice job, and I need to focus on that. Things could be so much worse.

Yeah, another self-indulgent ramble. Apologies and excuses await...