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2009-04-05 3:20 PM
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Ok so i sent the holly(ex) a message to see what i could get outta of her and this is how it went.

"This is for bed so if your reading it please stop, the thing is if you keep out baby i know the only way it'll work is if we get back together so i want you to know i dont want it to be forced and i dont think you do either if you even want to try. if your still have it when i come down next maybe we can talk more abt everything so if it happens you and i both know what we want and stuff. i do still love you a bit and i think deep down you do to so if we were to try again we are ready for everything i dont mean to sound like an arsehole saying all this but i'd do anything to stop what your thinking of doing. but all i can promise is i will try. have a good sleep hope all went well with the girls. P.s i'm here for you even wen angry or asleep. xoxo" -Jody

"i dont know wat 2do, i dont kno wat is best. i think ive made up my mind &then it changes . i dont kno if i want us to try 2get back togetha &try make this work, i ended things for a reason &the only reason we'd be gettin back 2getha is cuz of the baby, thats not a gd enuf reason 4me. it has 2b coz we want 2. ijust dont kno wat to do. i hate this. it's gettin 2me more &more each day. i wish this never happened. we both want new &diffrent things so y force this? i am sorry i maybe be doin this, i never thought i wld. eunu even kno if i can. i'm such a wuss! hope all went well at wrk. enjoy &hav a gd sleep" -Holly

"Enjoy work" -Jody

"Thanks" -Holly

" i think you need to re read that message i sent you last night cuz you basicly just reworded it and sent it back to me. i know what i sed and it all seams very a like. i'm at the point where i need a straight answer from you it'll hurt but i need to know so i can carry on with me life what i have left tht you havent already taken away" -Jody

"so i take it then you wont be replying to that message i sent this morning"-Jody

"well i told you wat i was thinking.Sorry it was similaur 2u. i read ur msg more then once btw. hope all goes well 2nite." -Holly

"i know you dont want me and its similair to what i think. if anything i have more to loose then you emotionaly that is, but i want a answer before you go to this apointment or as soon as possible but know that when you do i'll hold you to it" - Jody

"ok, thats a lil harsh but i guess i can understand. i am getting morning sickness but day tho. feel like crap'" -Holly

"yea it is sorry but i'm basicly just waiting on you, where as you have two choices either one you have to live with i know it must be harder for you and thats why i'm always saying i'm here for you but this is killing me inside every day and it's funny cuz you have somthing living in you more so each day. But seriuosly i am really depressed abt this all and the only thing that carms me is talking to you or mom." -Jody

"ok then, i am probaly not gonna keep it so thats ur answer.sorry" -Holly

"Your life! Still want to hear how the first appointment goes other then that i hope you know what you want" -Jody

these were the messages in that day but when she sent the last one saying she probaly wont keep it i must have been reading what i wanted cuz i didnt read the NOT so i knew what it would feel like to be a dad again for about half hour, then i re-read the message and yea it dropped me back to being upset.

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