Listening: 30 Seconds to Mars
Desiring: oodles of money
Enjoying: coffee!

I keep thinking guiltily about this journal and how I haven't updated in a while and how uncreative I am in not feeling up to writing at all about anything. It's not true, stuff is going, I'm just not interested in enough to keep a running tally for you all.

In no particular order: I'm working on my taxes and even so keep forgetting how little time I have left. The really important thing is that when my company was aquired my 401K ceased to exist. Because I was lame and didn't roll the money over into the new company's 401K I recieved a disbursement of all the money in the account minus Federal and State taxes. For whatever reason they didn't also withhold the fees for early withdrawl so now I'm paranoid about when/how to pay that.

I didn't see such a thing show up on TurboTax, but then it's a bit of a rare thing to have happen. Fortunately I haven't cashed the check just yet so I'll have the money, but it's holding up a lot of other things.

Gah. Every year I swear next year, at tax time I'll be better prepared. and I totally never am. *sigh*

I also have a check from the state as a reimbursement for part of the money I paid on last year's car registration. I've been holding onto it for a while seriously thinking I should endorse it back to the state. It's only about $90 (people who owed/got back more are whiny bitches who drive cars that are expensive and thus shouldn't whine so much) (I'm sorry, was that pissy? don't mean to be pissy. oh wait, yeah I do), but seriously I'd rather the state keep the money and be able to pay the fucking bills than to shaft the cities and counties so that we see both a reduction in patrol officers and early release of felons, including violent criminals. Thanks, Schwarzie. Bleh.

Anywhichway, once I have the tax thing settled I'll pay some bills with whatever is left of the 401K money and invest everything else. The boy says I should open a Roth IRA. I'd prefer something that benefits the state of California as well as my bank account, but seeing as how I suck at this whole money business I don't know what would be, let alone how to pull it off. I don't want to start a business or become a professional lobbyist so.... *sigh*



Moving on: For nearly the past week I've been dealing with some kind of stomach dyspepsia. I don't know what it's from but for four-five days in a row everything I ate upset my stomach. I'm trying a couple things in hopes it isn't set off again but I'm also going to try and see a doctor soon.

Seeing a doctor has been a whole different trial. The HMO switched over too, but I was more on top of that and pulled a doctor from Aetna's Web site as my PCP. Unfortunately when I tried to get an appointment with her the receptionist informed me that no one knew who she was and if she had ever been with that medical group she had quit them long ago. So I've been working on getting a new doctor...we'll see how it easy it is to get actually checked out and not pay through the nose for it.



Politics-wise I've been somewhat irked by things that are going on. First I think I should state that I've come to conclusion that I can't be bothered to give a shit about the Flag Pledge and that I don't care if it says "And we recognize no god, only our own flag," or if it said "and blessed be Jesus Christ, the only true Lord and Saviour." I JUST. DON'T. CARE.

However what I do care about is women's rights. I'm sure you're a bunch of good journal readers and so you already read my rant against fetal protection laws. I'm fairly frustrated with the California Supreme Court's decision that it's still a double homicide if you kill a pregnant woman, even if you didn't know she was pregnant. I'm frustrated because I understand the precedent they had to rule under so I don't disagree with the judgment, I disagree with the precedent and thus the premise that someone should charged with murder if a fetus is destroyed by their actions. It's permanent damage, sure. Just like if you attacked a woman and as a result she permanantly lost the use of her right arm, this should be the same. Gah. stupid people.


But I'm also annoyed by the consistent inability of institutions of higher learning to set down their intramural guidelines for freedom of expression. It bugs me that the bastions of learning are just as reactionary as every government branch. YOu would think an art school at least would anticipate that students might try to push things and therefore be ready to anticipate things. But you'd be wrong.

Then there is the "Academic Bill of Rights" which strikes me as not only silly, but a further expression of the pushing and demanding the conservatives of this country are committing in order to move the pole of moderate debate further to the right. It irks me that people go to schools that are traditionally liberal and then whine that they get intimidated for their conservative views. They showcased a young man who was assigned a paper that had a subject soemthing along the lines of "Show why Bush is Evil" (the actualy adjective currently escapes me). He turned in a paper explaining why he thought Saddam Huseein is evil. Then he had the nerve to be offended when he got an F on his paper. Well, numb nuts, what did you expect for not being able to stick the basic subject of your assignment? I've written contrarian papers before, but you can't just completely change the parameters of your assignment and expect the prof to be happy about it. sheesh.

If these people wanted to attend a keystone for modern neo-conservative thinking they can come on out to my Alma Mater. If I could attend a school where "Young Democrats" was disbanded due to lack of interest and still come out a liberal, they could fucking attend a liberal arts school (ohmygosh a liberal arts school attracting more liberals than conservatives!?!? say it ain't so!) and hold onto their precious conservative agenda.


Presidentially...meh. Dissatisfied with Kerry, still not in a big hurry to vote Green again. No I'm not voting for Nader. I don't understand why anyone would. Last time saw zero difference between the Dem and Rep candidates (and yes both parties should be offended by that), so I voted for Nader as much to say "none of the above" as "give me a third goddamned party" as anything. I don't know why he didn't start running last Oct-Nov when he could have actually affected the tone of the election and make sure other issues were raised. I certainly don't know why he's running now and have yet to figure out what caused his split with the Green party.

There are some things that impress me about Kerry, but not nearly as many or as impressive as the things I've liked about Nader or Peter Camejo. *sigh* while I refuse to endorse the plan of "anyone but Bush" I have to admit there's a multitude of politicians I'd rather vote for than for Bush.

and as impossible as the idea is, can I just say how delectable I find the idea of a Kerry - McCain ticket? *drools* mmhh yummy.





Been feeling lonely somemore, but more in the vein that I can't rely on anyone. Which I already knew, but it's frustrating to rediscover.

The second half of this month should be a little more fun. It'll be kicked off by a TMBG show at the Anaheim House of Blues (that's just a kick ass venue), then I'll be on vacation for 10 days. I get to go here for a couple days and then off to see the beautiful New Mexico countryside. The downside, if you can call it that, is wrapping up the week at SWRE. Fortunately, it'll be in Phoenix and if I get bored I know what I'll want to explore.

k I should some work done now.