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2007-03-16 9:55 AM mumbo jumbo Previous Entry :: Next Entry Read/Post Comments (0) i thought i'd already decided to just join softball and stick to it. but guess what. i haven't.
i have all these lingering second thoughts because of how time consuming i know it will be and how i may not be good at it and of course... strict strict coaches. i already had 4 years of that. and while i admit that i have come through a stronger person, the question still remains whether i want another 2 years like this bearing in mind that i'm an arts student, homework is going to be like 2000 word essays. how the heck am i to manage all that when i reach home at 8, start work at 9, all tired out from training. i know i have homework right now but i really cannot focus on anything. i have to think things through all over again. my parents are asking me to quit because they say it'll take too much time and i cannot manage. i can see their point of view. but maybe i can? my sister says quit too. but her reason is so that i can get a life. i really want to. i really do. but what the bloody heck am i to join then. i dunno. someone save me. i am so bloody confused. no one can help me. something inside of me still wants to be in sports. i guess i like how it helps me grow as a person. but the time. i only have 24 hours a day. and i'm the sort of person who likes to pour lots of time into work to make it good. and if i don't have time.... i don't know what the hell is going to happen to my grades. people can say what they want. but i'm in jc because i need to get the grades, get to uni, get out. and since thats a main goal, i have to care. so here i am. sitting in front of my com. a mumbo jumbo of emotions. pulling me this way and that. Read/Post Comments (0) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top |
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