another personality test. i think i am always searching for who i am. and sometimes i laugh at how these stupid websites tell me that they know what i am.
then i realise.. oh well. i cant help doing them.

your Enneagram type is ONE (aka "The Reformer").
"I do everything the right way"
Perfectionists are realistic, conscientious, and principled. They strive to live up to their high ideals.

you know you're a ONE if you disapprove of the things you like. (gasp with me)

How to Get Along with Me

-Take your share of the responsibility so I don't end up with all the work.
-Acknowledge my achievements.
-I'm hard on myself. Reassure me that I'm fine the way I am. (no. i need to continue being hard on myself)
-Tell me that you value my advice.
-Be fair and considerate, as I am.
-Apologize if you have been unthoughtful. It will help me to forgive. (actually, its hard to get me angry in the first place. but if i do get angry, apologizing actually won't help me forgive you anyway)
-Gently encourage me to lighten up and to laugh at myself when I get uptight, but hear my worries first. (i'm alwyas uptight. so. yea.)

What I Like About Being a ONE (this is too true)

-being self-disciplined and able to accomplish a great deal (uh huh)
-working hard to make the world a better place (i try my best.)
-having high standards and ethics; not compromising myself
-being reasonable, responsible, and dedicated in everything I do
-being able to put facts together, coming to good understandings, and figuring out wise solutions
-being the best I can be and bringing out the best in other people (HAHAHAHAHAH)

What's Hard About Being a ONE

-being disappointed with myself or others when my expectations are not met
-feeling burdened by too much responsibility (too true... sometimes i wish i could let go)
-thinking that what I do is never good enough
-not being appreciated for what I do for people
-being upset because others aren't trying as hard as I am
o-bsessing about what I did or what I should do
-being tense, anxious, and taking things too seriously (i know i know. i cant help it)

ONES as children often

-criticize themselves in anticipation of criticism from others
-refrain from doing things that they think might not come out perfect (really...? not really. if i did, i'd be in science wouldn't i.)
-focus on living up to the expectations of their parents and teachers (nope. just my own. which just happens to be that little bit higher than theirs anyway)
-are very responsible; may assume the role of parent (you can say that again. i frequently feel like a teenage mother)
-hold back negative emotions ("good children aren't angry") (yes. i'd rather sulk and cry alone then show my parents that i'm pissed as shit)

ONEs as Parents

-teach their children responsibility and strong moral values
-are consistent and fair
-discipline firmly

overall, quite freakly true.

today was exhausting. because you made it so. i'm really rather sick and tired of this. all this shit.
it feels like the splinter in my finger. literally, the thorn in my flesh. you'd say i was unkind to put it as such. but this is about as much as i can take anyway.

i hope tomorrow is better.