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2008-02-11 7:11 PM I knew it Previous Entry :: Next Entry Mood: pissed off and fucking tired. reflective. Read/Post Comments (2) Part of the perks of being a pessimist: When disaster strikes, you were expecting it anyway.
Which softens the blow. Because you've sort of padded up your heart for it... Application for 13 units has been rejected. Officially. I knew I didn't stand a chance from the start given my dismal cca record. I'm just pissed because... that's not a bloody reason to reject me. It's not like I'm gonna buff up my portfolio just because you said no. No hard feelings you ask. I have no answer. In the end... I brought myself to where I am. Making decisions, making mistakes. Well look, my last stand on this is: I don't blame you for being you But you can't blame me for hating it. And I believed I said so earlier. I really wanted this. Overload on pain and work and late nights. Distracts me from things that really matter but are too damn painful to think about. So. Today was a sucky day all round. When I was 16, I typed "So now I stand, at the crossroads with no signposts". Have I been going round in circles?... Perhaps. That would explain why I'm back in the same damn place... Why I should keep my H3: 1) I like history. I think I like research essay-ing. I like my topic. I actually feel for it. 2) It'll look better on my a level cert. Why I should throw away my H3: 1) cca sucks already. no chance of scholarship. ACCOUNTANCY! why the hell am I doing this again? 2) It's really a shit load of work. I'll enjoy it sure. But I'm also gonna get so damn tired. Why I should drop Econs: 1) I definitely suck at it. like. yea. I think my tennis might be better than my econs. Econs really... catch no ball. 2) Its a mugging subject! My only mugging subject. the time factor is scary. 3) I will possibly get a new tutor. Why I should keep Econs: 1) I like the damn subject. 2) ACCOUNTANCY. 3) It might be the same tutor. It really all comes down to 3 questions Can manage? Accountancy? Really...? So many questions. I need an answer. Read/Post Comments (2) Previous Entry :: Next Entry Back to Top |
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