I cannot believe how many times I tell myself I'm just fine everyday. Well... persuasion was never my strongest suit.

But I have cleared some things up with myself:

1) I want to hold on to as much as I can, till the end.

2) I need to freaking stay off things that make me happy so I can just study and make it through A levels.

Yep. Its pretty simple really.

School's been hell. But so what... no choice.

Gah. I hate disappointing teachers. and myself, more than anything else. Guess I'll have to try harder...

Fight the good fight, run the good race.
Easier said than done.

But...
"Okay, alright. I can do this".