Passion, though a bad regulator, is a powerful spring.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

When I came in this morning from my chores, I had this grand idea of what I was going to write. It was good too, but it will come later. I first read an email from a dear friend of mine who used to be a daily fixture in my life and now sadly I see maybe once or twice a year for a quick lunch. She has held a belief of what lies in my capabilities for years, even though she is not a horse person, has only seen me work with them one time she believes in me just as much as my most cherished client. Her email touched me so deeply that she can think on such a grand scale for my future, her scale was bigger than even mine; it was nothing short of world domination. It made me feel as though I was selling myself short. Which comes as a surprise; I’ve always been a big dreamer with lofty goals.

Today we are under a Scorpio moon, which always draws intensity and usually of the internal sort, we are drawn to obsession like only a Scorpio can obsess. I’m usually wary of these moons on account of it making me more concerned with someone else’s behavior and than with my own. Which is of course the wrong way to reflect and later in the day you feel like a spoiled brat that had their favorite marker stolen in preschool. I had a night of horrible, bloody, graphic dreams, so many that maybe I should switch to writing horror instead of these, it would certainly be easier to just copy my dreams down instead of configure these wouldn’t it? I’m rambling.

So where am I going with this? I’m getting there I promise. When I woke up today my first thought was that today is my dad’s birthday, and on days like this that my life is infused with his presence even though he’s no longer here I wake up thinking he is really alive. The reality hits me and it hurts all over again that he is not here, I will not see him today and I can’t give him a hug anymore. All my intensity was drawn to that moment, and it was so powerful it shifted everything in my entire life for an instant. What was that shift created by? Passion – amplified by the Scorpio moon times ten. If we are capable of transforming an entire moment in our minds so much that we actually believe it is true, with that sort of thought surrounded with that much passion, why can’t we transform our entire worlds and surroundings to what we require to make our grandest dreams come true? Why not? There is no reason, as The Secret says we are the most powerful transmission tower in the universe. What are you transmitting?

I’m making a pact today to myself and to my dad who if he was here would help me nail every single nail into my gigantic secret dream that I’m going to use that powerful transformative energy to build momentum in mega form towards my dream. It would be what he would want, because he believed in me just like some of my friends do and he wouldn’t stand for me not dreaming big enough.

I still miss you dad, I always will, there will never be another to walk the planet quite like you. In your absence I’ve had to learn a lot about love, maybe you left so I could really learn what I needed about survival skills of love. Because love, even if immaculate, you still must learn how to survive how it transforms you.

Back on my path, back with obsession; only directed towards a powerful healing future instead.