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2010-11-13 6:52 AM Blah-g #210 Tonsillitis Previous Entry :: Next Entry Read/Post Comments (0) |
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Yes you fuck cunts read right. I have tonsillitis. It hurts like fuck. It's hard to do anything. My neck is sore as all hell. It hurts to even swallow my own damn spit. So I got it Wednesday and been suffering since and a shit ton of bull-fucking-shit with it. Anyways I'm supposed to be locked in my room for the next few days as I am contagious. But I have my laptop, net book, external hard drive, drawing stuff and plenty of music and my phone to keep me company. I think I might be loosing weight too. I haven't been eating and have had diarrhea. So lets see: Wednesday: a small 1x1 piece of rice krispy, about 10 grapes and lots of spit Thursday: another 5 grapes, a 8oz cup of chicken broth, two 3oz cups of lentil soup broth with oh idk a few lentils for good measure Friday: a 3 oz cup of lentil soup broth around 5am and half an icee 24oz cup around 4pm Saturday: nothing so far So there That's literally all I've eating since I got sick. Not to mention the chicken broth gave me explosive watery diarrhea so what ever broth I drink I end up shitting out so I have like nothing in my system. Now I'm hearing my stomach rumbling violently and clenching for food that I CAN eat and lo and be-fucking-hold there is none. Like always when I'm sick there's no food. YET MIRACULOUSLY THERE IS FOR WHEN MY DUMBCUNT OF A SISTER IS OR WHEN MY DRUGGIE BROTHER IS! And I got up around oh 7am to see if there was any of my chicken broth in the fridge. Nope. But I did see the KFC left overs they had for dinner last night. So I check the freeze cuz Master says that ice cream helps soothe the burning of the tonsillitis and of course they finished that off with the blackberry pie after they're KFC dinner. So yeah. I dunno when the next time I'll be able to eat and I'm fucking crying as I type this cuz I'm in pain and hungry. And starting to see that Master is right. Cuz he's always right. My family, especially my mom doesnt care about me anymore. I'm just an expendable slave that doesn't need medical attention, that doesn't need food, that doesnt need rest. Check it out. I was around 249-250ish so I'm a pretty big girl. Yesterday they weighted me and I was about 246 so right off the bat from literally not eating I prolly dropped off like 3 or 4 pounds. And does my mom say anything? Nope. She even took the change I had been saving up. I had almost 20 bucks in fucking change and she makes me give her 3 dollars so my 1st grade brother can have nachos and a soda, and for the youngest to have an ice cream or nachos too. Then she took me to the free clinic which wasn't exactly free but was considerably cheaper than going to the ER and she takes the rest of my change so she can pay for my meds. AFTER SHE YELLED AT ME IN THE MORNING THAT IF I WANTED TO GO TO THE ER THAT SHE WOULD DROP ME OFF AND WAIT FOR ME TO EITHER GET A PRESCRIPTION AND SHE WOULD PAY FOR IT OR IF THEY HAD TO CUT OFF MY TONSILS. And I'm just like what the fuck? That was about 4 months of saved up change. Why was I saving up? Cuz I told Master by the time he came back to even just visit me I'd have enough saved up to take HIM out to dinner just for once. And now its all gone. I feel like shit because of it and that there's nothing I can do. Yeh I know most of you are wondering why I don't just leave but: 1) transferring college paper work would be a complete pain in the ass. (Had a friend do that and she still didnt get it to the college she wanted to because the paper work was lost en route FROM SOMEONE AT THE FUCKING COLLEGE, what happened was she went to her interview and gave the transferring counselor the paper work and they said they'd put it in and then she got a call last week saying that they didnt get her paper work and they would have accepted her because she's such a good student and even though they were over flooded with transfer students but no paper work no acceptance) 2) As much as I love Master's mom and dad and brother, they are great I love them as if they were my own family, I don't want to impose myself on them especially if they only get a set income 3) I told Master I wouldn't move in with him unless he had is own place. Yes whether its here in California or in Pennsylvania. But from these three its the first two that are keeping me from actually doing anything about it and the fact that I still kinda want my mom to be ok with me leaving. But I know now that she never will be ok with it and that I'll have to make my own decisions when I feel I'm ready for them. Though I'm sure once me and Master solidify our marriage plans it'll be easier for me to make my decisions. Anyways on a lighter note I'm still looking for a scanner. My other one got fucked up after my sister's dumb dog (read earlier posts don't know which specific one) and damn near broke it and that was a major bummer cuz I really liked the scanner. But I guess it means I need a new one lol. I'm such a dork. I say I love me teh death metal and yet I end up listening to OSTs. Law0rz. Oh well. I just guess it depends on how I'm subconsciously feeling. So just now at 9am I got up to take my meds and I was wobbly like a drunk person you'd see on cops. That's how bad I got not eating. :iconhurrhurrplz: I need to finish downloading Beyond Belief: Fact or Fiction and ADVENTURE TIME! I love those shows. Hm. Mayb I should ask Master to help me find Freaky Links. I liked that show too. It was retarded lol. But I thought it was hilarious. Kinda wish they kept Beyond Belief and Freaky Links. As far as my art I guess I won't be posting any til I get a new scanner :| Which kinda sucks cuz while I was cleaning my room I found a shit ton of doodles from last year that I havent posted so when I do get a new scanner except either a shit ton of sketch dumps or one big ass file. So yeah. Space for rent. By the way, today is mine and Master's 5 years and 10 months anniversary. YAY in your faces!!!! :P I guess thats it for now. Later you sad fuck cunts. ---------------- Now playing: Tom Hulce - Heaven's Light /Hellfire |
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