I have been runnin non stop since last monday today is my first day with nuthin to do. I wonder if I will bee able to make it the whole day doin nuthin. I am doin good thus far, I did not wake up till 12:30. I am attracted to my friend and I hate it. I do not want to be attracted to him it's not fair. I wish we could control who we like. I dont wanna fuck up my friendship but I love bein around him. I constantly think about us bein together which is drivin me nutso. He is great around my kids and I love his daughter. He says we can not be together because I used to be his BF's GF but that was 3 years ago and me and his friend do not even talk and he lives with me. Everyone says we act like a couple but yet without some of the "good" benefits. We do everything together and my friends say they can tell he has feelins for me too. Help me ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh lol oh well. Life goes on I just had to get that off my chest.