OK....... Where to start, my mother is annoying. She tries to tell me how to be a mother 24/7 and let me tell you she was not the best mother by far. Yesterday she called me to ask if I could go to lunch with her for her birthday I then informed her that I am way way way to broke to go. She then informed me that she would pay and I told her she could take my oldest with her and not me if she wanted to. I felt bad she should not pay for me on he birthday but I knew my daughter would enjoy it. A few hours later my daughter came home balling her eyes out and my "loving" mother was screamin her bloody head off. My daughter went to her room meanwhile my mother proceeded to yell at me. She tells me I work to much and I need to spend more time with my kids. I then say trust me I know but are you going to pay my bills????????????? She says that is not the point I say yes it is I only work so much so my kids are not lacking anything and I do not have to rely on anyone. She says that I am being a bad parent because I am not there.... throw it in my face why don't you. She says to me it is dumb of me to allow my youngest to go to her dads every weekend and yet do nothing for my oldest. I say I am sorry should I go collect her bum of a father out of jail and make him see his daughter at gun point she proceeds to yell and inform me that again not what she meant. I say what then and she says well you are all she has you need to realize that. I say trust me I realize every day when I wake up. She then proceeds to tell me that I should watch what I say and that I make my kids feel like dirt. WHAT?????????????? ARE YOU FREAKIN KIDDING ME LADY???? I put on a smile every day and no one knows the hurt and the pain I feel on a daily basis, I bury that shit just so my kids have no idea the struggles I go through. She proceeds to yell at me over and over again. I then proceed to kick her out of my house because I am an adult I do not have to listen to her anymore. So then she decides to go talk to my kids some more, WHAT????? ARE YOU KIDDIN ME????? Leave bitch get the hell outa my house now. She leaves and my daughter comes down and I ask her what happened she informs me that my mother kept pushin her askin ?s about me and makin her upset. OMG my daughter the proceeds to tell me she appreciates how hard I work and yes she does miss me but she understands and loves me for it and wishes she could help. My 11 year old daughter says this to me.......? What do I say to that? I tell her its ok hunny I love doin it for you and I will always do everything in my power for you. We hold each other and she falls asleep. I then cry to...yes my rooma mate who held me and made me ok and told me he wanted to kick my moms ass for how rude she was to me. I told him I appreciate that but more so I appreciate that he with held himself. I just needed him to hold me and tell me everything would be ok and he did. I live every day as it comes because if I think about stuff to much I go insane. Every day I make it through is a freakin gold star in my book. I like to use the analagy- My life is like I am ice skating on some thin ass ice and if I make a wrong move it will break so I take each stride slowly and gracefully. Well last night my mom pushed me and broke the freakin ice!!!!! Thank god for my friends honestly I don't think I ever felt as bad in my life as last night and they helped me through it all!!!! SO HERE IS A SHOUT OUT TO MY GIRLS (MY WORLD)AND MY FRIENDS (MY SHOULDERS TO CRY ON)!!!!!!!! That is my rant for the day.