I don't know about the rest of you all -but I have purchased more than my share of E-BOOKS from fellow authors and friends. It's something I feel is good to do. Just e-sales -not expensive (although, I've purchased a few individual authors print books as well to support my fellow authors/friends) but what I've found -most the time, actually 98% of the time it is not reciprocated. People don't seem to have a problem asking me to purchase their books -but seem to have a problem giving $1 for a download for one of my books.

Since my Gramma book went live -I sold a grand total of 2 books. Ye-Haw Giddi-up. I've purchased so many the past 3 years I can't count them all -but only 2 people purchased mine. Big WOW. I think this publishing shit is just that -SHIT.

I'm not much interested in this crap anymore. I'm losing interest in writing to get published and I think after these few commitments that I have -after those- FUCK PUBLISHING anymore and FUCK promoting 'my' own titles. Everyone seemed to think I could promo their titles -and I have... but I didn't expect to have to bend over backwards to get two measily sales, right? So, I think my review days are over, my blurb days are gone, etc...

You see, another bit of info while we're on my pissy mood lately -I was asked to write a blurb for BLOODLANDS, I did so and was praised highly for it.... but the blurb was not listed at the publisher site with all the other blurbs. Another oversight? go fuck off. I am sick of reading everyone elses stories and asked to also supply a blurb or review only to get either no recognition for the review/blurb or have the blurb totally kicked to the shitpile.

I think if ones ask me again for anything like this -I think I will SPIT. I am officially announcing -I will not supply reviews, blurbs, or any such thing to any author or publisher that tends to feast off my words and time and then take what they want from it and either not credit me or take the whole thing and trash it.

I refuse to take anymore of this crap. period.

I've never felt bad about writers -this is why I always hosted TOOTSIE POP contests (out of my own pocket) per author's requests. I enjoyed working with authors very much and felt we were all on this bus ride together -that is until lately -I have seen myself trampled on while I gritted my teeth and didn't speak much about it. Well, this is IT. I'm done with this crap called: Publishing and Reviewing. It's a bunch of hogwash. You do for me but don't you dare mention to me anything to go read or buy... how dare I? ....

I'm in a very grumpy mood lately -and for that I apologize. But I can't apologize for feeling the way I do lately. I have been screwed over so many times that I've truly lost count. I'm exhausted and don't care for what successes I thought I made -I see they weren't even successes. What's the great deal -so, I got another story published... this time a book with only my name as an author and it sold a whopping 2 copies. WOWZA. what a joke. $2. *gigglescreams* isn't that ironic? The worse part is: I know the two that bought the book. Even "close friends and fellow authors" of mine did not even spend $1 on a book of mine when I've bought theirs. That tells me a lot. That tells me I must be a shitty author and my work is not worth four quarters.

Geeez. How Embarrassing. *sighs*

Another no brainer post from the dazed and confused dreamer.