was gearing up for a busy weekend

jester was to hold his west coast reception for his wedding and i would see his wife for the first time in a year and a half.

got the email for it from richard, and the update yesterday

got a phone call from richard today to say the reception is cancelled

wifey can't travel great distances for several months to come, according to richard

i can only assume jester and wifey are pregnant

richard insinuated this is a good thing

i guess so as wifey wants to be the lady with the hubby and nice house and kids and animals

jester is just.... not that he wouldn't make a great dad...he's a just a goob

reality and he don't always agree and sometimes he refuses to lay down the necessary safety net when one is going to challenge reality

he still thinks he's going to get rich off of the internet and that a 401k is all one needs for a happy retirement

so wifey has been supporting that family unit for a while now. but...she's a teacher...

the benefits are awesome but the pay... *sigh*

this is the thing about jester:
in the two+ years he's lived in yucaipa my email and phone numbers have not changed with one addition of an apartment number.

still when he had a housewarming i got it from richard

when he was getting married jester emailed me my official invite

i tried tracking the couple down last summer after i figured they might be back from honeymooning but the number was disconnected and email either bounced or was never answered

i had an opportunity to see him last october but was in a bad mood and didn't follow through, my bad

saw him in early december and told him to drop me a line, he said he would. he didn't.

heard about the reception through richard, got word of it's cancellation from richard

i don't even have any way of contacting him to give any fucking congratulations

i was best friends with him and lived with him for just long enough to know not to rely on him for hard things but i also found him totally reliable for soft thing

i could call him all the way in iowa or missouri and he could calm me down, talk me down from a ledge as it were

there was a time in college when he was the only person who could keep me off that ledge

now i don't know him, don't know where he is... can't find him... nothing.

gah. still happy for him but... gah.