Listening: Little Plastic Castle, Ani di Franco
Mentally Replaying: "Crime for Crime," Ani
I'd rather be: healthy!
Desiring: peace of mind
Aches and Complaints: god where to start...
Enjoying: gonna see my baby tonight!

I'm falling apart. It could be worse, all things considered. I haven't been really depressed in a while. I think I was getting there a little bit at the party, but then things got ...woggly....

But I haven't been able to sleep for longer than two hours at a stretch for several nights now. I wake up and I'm uncomfortable or sweating profusely or my tummy aches or my back or something....

I think I've been keeping a tiny bout of UTI at bay. Just a little bit.

At least my period ended a couple days ago so I don't have to deal with that at the same time. And boy, that wasn't much fun....

Monday dawned bright and warm and Tuesday was downright hot. Then the temps plummeted at sunset yesterday. Over Monday and Tuesday I was sneezy and just wrote it up to spring allergies. (yep it's my favorite season and I'm allergic to it.)

Then last night I was either freezing in the air of my apartment or huddled and sweating up a storm under the covers. *sigh*

I thought my Molasses had some issues with allergies too but it seems he's actually sick. I know because he spent the night last night and today I can barely breath, my desk is littered with used tissues and my temples feel like they're in a vice. Every deep breath is immediately followed several painful coughs.

and of course my nose is raw from being rubbed a lot and my sinuses hurt....

I'm sure stress plays a part in this. I'm coming to a place at work where my declining interest is intersecting with certain managerial interest in my ideas. I need this place at least through the end of the year, but I'm at a point where I just want to have a little corner of the office to do my thing and never get bothered....

And war...good god. I don't even know what to say anymore. I say most things I have to say at Derek James' journal. I try to stick to just pointing out logical fallacies but my mood strongly colors what I have to say, and sometimes I just can't keep myself from just blurting out personal feelings on some subjects. But I'm proud that I manage to cut out any name calling and taunting. Others don't and I don't have a high opinion of it. Of course I've been accused of such tactics, but I say such charges are bullshit.

Anywhichway, two days after payday I have less than $100 to go on. *Sigh* Just waiting on that tax money. Hope nothing goes wrong with this.

Gonna send the 'rents to Lake Tahoe later in the month. I have to explain the location of the resort - which will be away from the lake and up at over 7000 feet. My dad might not be up for that. Hope that goes ok, too.

Later on this month I want to buy tickets to Pittsburgh for Memorial Day weekend. But I still have to speak with the locals and determine whether or not Molasses wants to go.

As for tonight I'm going to stay in with Molasses who isn't well enough for his class. Maybe we'll have some chicken soup and watch some TV.

PS - I had a scary dream this morning, but I don't have time to write now.... It's why I have "Crime for Crime" running through my head.


But at least flowers are starting to bloom.