Listening: "Triad" Tool

I want to be bored or distracted. But I can't I've got way too much work to do. I have time for this entry because I have a project running that I can't touch until it's done.

So I have a few minutes...

1) Money. Near as I can tell the govm't owes me some damned money. Over $300 in fact. Now I don't have any problems with paying taxes. But the thing is I have bills to pay and have been counting on that money to pay them with.

I've been waiting for that money for over a month now. It's starting to get annoying.

Fortunately I get paid tomorrow and I'm supposed to have a smidge of a bonus in it (whatever the taxman leaves behind). So that will be nice. But late last week I was near hysterics for lack of money. Arg.

2) Tired of arguing. I'm tired of it. I'm tired of arguing with other people, with myself, with my parents, with my bf.... why can't they just give up and admit that I'm right?

I'm kidding.... of course the intruiguing bit would be getting myself to admit that I'm right. That'd be neat.

"What I want is not to want what isn't mine."
--Another Girl's Paradise
--Tori Amos

Sing it, sister.

But the battle, the tug-of-war between what I desire and what I think is right is starting to drive me crazy. I think I have good logic capabilities, but I've never been trained as a debator so I get frustrated when I think I'm onto soemthing that makes logical sense but I can't put that in words that make other people understand what I mean without tons of effort that mostly goes unheeded.

3) weight. Um... the scale in the gym says I've lost about 9 lbs over the last month. This is the same scale that I regularly see people testing, and occasionally jumping up and down and cursing to eternity after eternity in hell. So while I'm hopeful that it's still accurate, I'm gonna keep on being paranoid.

Plus, I think I lost most of the weight in water due to Lenten fasting. I intend to eat a little more from here on out, though tomorrow I'm going by the GNC for some more ephedrine. But I'm still scared that any pounds I've lost only went away so that they could taunt me all the more when they came back.

But even so, if everything is true and accurate, then I've lost 5% of my weight, which is really nice.

Ok, that's all I have time for.

BYe!