Manny had informed me that the cops had posted a flyer on my store's doors to warn the community that there is a sexual predator out there. Having not seen the flyer myself yet, I can't help but wonder if it is the same jackass that attacked me several months ago.

Even now I still have nightmares about what happened that night. It has been nearly a year since it happened and yet occasionally I am still stricken by panic when someone comes into the store or is near me and appears to be "off", particularly hispanic men.

Sometimes I wonder, what possesses a person to do such a thing to someone else? Is it the power that they feel while rendering someone else powerless? Is it the fear they instill into their victim? Is it sex that they were truly after or are they trying to numb the pain and suffering in their own life?

I wonder if they realize the extent of the pain and suffering they cause their victims. Not to mention how long lasting the effects are. To this day, I still cannot seem to walk by myself long distances without having the sudden paranoia creep up on me. I still feel disgusted when I remember the events of that night.

The thing that really bothers me is that he is still out there despite my efforts. Every now and again when I'm going down the home stretch by car I look in the area where it happened and I wonder if he's there lurking in the shadows awaiting his next victim. Worse yet, has he progressed and gone from sexual assault to actual rape?