So, yesterday was my birthday, so I decided to make an entry dedicated to that.

The day itself was nothing special, just the standard stuff. Wouldn't really call it a celebration, to be honest. A few people came, got some gifts, etc. And cake. Cake is always awesome, isn't it? I guess that is one of best things for sure. There was no party or anything like that though. But that is fine with me, I don't like parties anyway. I am not much of party person. The thought is the thing that always matters, and it can always be expressed even with most simple things. Acknowledging is good enough.

Of course, there were many people, "friends", that didn't even bother to remember or mention anything. Yeah, it was kinda sad because of that, but I knew it will be this way anyway. I'm just sad that with every year that number increases. I know I shouldn't be, but there was some sadness inside me because of that. I mean, I know I say I don't want to hear it sometimes, but thing is, deep inside, I only say that because I know that if I will expect something, then I will be let down without doubt. So far I was mostly right. I guess that sending a little text message, be it phone or computer, is so difficult to do these days. It's not like I wanted poems about me or anything. I only wanted to be remembered at least once. Just a few words is all that is needed. I wasn't really surprised with who people that cared were and who people that didn't were. Oh well. Can't make people do what they don't want to do. Can't make people care if they don't want to.

Last year definitely wasn't best of my life. In fact, I can say that it was one of the worst. Guess I can just hope that it won't be that way this year. It is quite a new start, as I am not same as I was before. I even changed my Gaia username, since it is new start there, too. Funny thing is I am not the only one who did it. My friend Anna did too. It is really an interesting condition. We both have a birthday on same day, face the same problems. And now both even changed our names on the same day. It is always good to have good friends. I feel that over last few months we bonded alot more than before, therefore are alot better friends now than we were. And it is new start too, so I will try to find new friends. One thing I realized, is concentrating on same people when they don't care about me is not a right thing to do. Gotta keep searching.

Don't know what this new year of life will bring, but I hope it will be at least something good. I mean, how many problems can I have? There has to come time where I get something good instead, right? How many troubles can one guy go through? It just has to end sometime. Things can't go down all the time... If you hit a bottom, then you just have to go up, somehow. That is what I am hoping for. I could always be wrong, of course. It has happened before.