What a weekend...I cried myself to sleep a couple of nights....I just needed to "let it all out"....friends called to check on us...we shared the recent findings with them...its always so hard....they get really quiet....and I get teary eyed....and its hard....knowing what their fears are, feelings must be, and wanting to do....not knowing "what to do" or to say..
Cathy has such an awesome demeanor about her....she is so easy going, laid back, and she calms me when I am worried or fearful....and I think to myself...what a wonderful spirit she is....she is like a rock.....so calm, so level headed...she never sees anything bad in anyone.....even when people who are downright ugly to her...she just smiles, and she says "that is why I am still here, to teach them humility or compassion"...and I just love her...she is brilliant.
I may not have told you fellow journalists or readers...Cathy has a triple degree...she has a Pre-Med BS in Chemistry and Biology, graduating Magna Cum Laude, she is an Associate Degree RN, and she can explain any medical diagnosis to you in simple, lay terms, and you know exactly what she is saying....I begged her to go on to become a Doctor...she would be an awesome one...she doesn't want to go to school anymore..... for that I am sad, as the Medical Profession is suffering a tremendous loss.....
Anyway, I am content this evening...we spent the day at a Southern Plantation, then found a neat little restaurant that served homemade soups and sandwiches...was it ever good...we had asparagus and crab soup with an egg salad croissant....yummo...was it ever good....we wore her out....her sister, mom, and I took her to the plantation....
I am tired having not slept too good the last few nights....so maybe I will sleep good tonight.
We are still trying to get her new medicines in...one has to come from drug company as its still "experimental"...we have to wait to get them both in order to take them both at same time...
My heart is just sort of "numb" and my tears are "on hold"...I am waiting to be able to write something really profound, worth reading...so,I will leave you for now.....rest well, my darling....I love you with my soul!!!! Chatter