We ate lunch together and his rambling on about "our Problems" and how they seem bigger now than when I first wanted to see a counselor. And how he feels afraid. Well, yes he is afraid, he knows he is boxing me in. He mentioned that he is afraid to bring a cat in and didn't know why. I flat out told him-he doesn't want to share me with anyone or anything. The look in his eyes. I told him that is where the problems are.

Last week I was out of town, Saturday was a lounging day, but Sunday didn't go quite as planned and ever since then it has been hell. I think that I have pulled against the blockade-hard! I don't know what happened, I have my ideas. He doesn't like to share. And now he has me all to himself. It really is going to be hard. The crochet group isn't even meeting again till September. I should have known it wasn't going to fix itself that easy!!