Someone said it must be hard to be in a relationship where you had to think before you said anything. Well, except with my friend TT, and the very casual friendships I have had in the past, I think before I say anything. Very little comes out of my mouth without thought. (unless I am in an a extreme emotional state)

How is the person hearing what you are saying going to feel hearing it? Is there another way of saying it? What are the repurcussions?

I learned to do this growing up. Eventually, I did it with everyone and without thinking about it. TT is the only one who broke through that shell. And stayed through. It doesn't mean that I don't react to what is said to me though. And I don't like this way at times, because the most honest information doesn't get said, just the least hurtful. I am trying to change this habit, However, it has kept me 'safe'. Or at least, I have felt safe. I don't think I have been though. By reading this journal, I don't think I have been.