There are several reasons why I've let my blogs lapse. A significant amount has to do with time. The time I have needs to go other places; there's just so much to do: school, work, family, writing.

I don't get as much writing as done as I like. And yet, I'm trying to be okay with this. School takes up a significant amount of time, especially the programming courses, but I know that life won't always be this way.

The biggest reason I haven't been blogging much for the past few years is because I don't feel I can be honest about what I'm thinking or feeling in a public forum. I have been censoring myself, censoring my life going through divorce and custody arrangements. Why I left Idaho. All of those things. I was trying to be a good person and not talk about my difficulties publicly, because so frequently my difficulties involved other people. It seemed unfair to air these issues.

Frequently I feel like writing here. I have something I want to say, but I find a reason to censor what I want to write. And frankly, I'm kind of sick of censoring what I have to say, on a blog, in a conversation, in my fiction.