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Hello, I am YFAT or Lo. I have been writing on Journal Scape for eight years now, working on my ninth. How the time flies! This journal chronicles my random thoughts, high moments and sometimes low, throughout high school, college, and now beyond, into the world of "adulthood", whatever that means.
2010-03-08 12:58 PM
The good karma just keeps coming
So...um...I have a boyfriend. As much as I find that word strange I believe that it the correct definition. (Okay I just checked on UrbanDictionary and Dictionary.com and it seems to be the right term.)
No, mom, I still don't have pictures. This early that may be a bit weird in my opinion but it was nice to look in his mirror when he had his arms around me and see the vision of "together."
Anyhoo, Imma cut to dah chase now.
This past Saturday I went on a second date with Tall Matt. We took the van down to the commons in the city to have lunch and just walk around getting to know each other better. On the ride down he let me browse through his iPod and I grinned at him when I found "My Humps" by The Black Eyed Peas; "It's for my mom." "Right." -ensue me being unable to get the image out of my head of him dancing to it despite that never being a possibility-
Once in the city it was pretty nice. The day was beautiful with the sun being out and there was a promise of spring in the air. We went to a restaurant that I know pretty well and enjoyed ourselves casually. Admittedly conversation with him isn't the most natural thing in the world but it allows me to spring an assortment of all sorts of random questions on him and know him better now. He has a lot of interesting stories to tell and is pretty endearingly sweet in his own way. It was a nice time.
When we got back to campus we went back to his room so he could show me a website he had mentioned and a few funny videos he wanted me to see. We were standing there discussing an interest of ours when he just kind of looked down at me with "the look" and then leaned down to kiss me. I think it is the first time since my first kiss that a male has initiated that move first on me. Bonus points to Tall Matt as I did NOT expect it and it was pretty nice at that...so um...we did some more of it and cuddled for a while. Super super good as cuddling with him IS THE FORKING BEST! He is more comfy than I expected! From the way he wears his clothing you'd think he is boney but really he a nice blend of muscle and comfort. Mmmm. Yeah.
The best part was just the smile on his face. He looks like a completely different person to me now and it is a beautiful thing. He appears younger, happier, not scary or intimidating in the slightest. There is something genuine and soft in him.
Anyhoo, yes, going on. We ended up eating dinner together and watching Zombieland which is a film with EPIC QUOTES! My personal favorite: "You just can't trust anyone. The first girl I let into my life and she tries to eat me,"~ Columbus. Sooo funny. After that we said goodnight and I headed back to my room feeling gosh darn happy.
I went online and there Mr. Eager Jason was waiting for me. I kind of concluded in the past week that all he and I were was Friends with Benefits anyway (I was initially quite pissed off/upset when the reality of it hit me and Jason went on a "If anything needs to change just tell me/I'm sorry" thing to suck up). He is a good friend and had things not hit off with Tall Matt on Saturday I don't think I'd have minded that much.
But I prefer commitment over good play time and I don't want to pass up a relationship with Tall Matt because of an easy bang. It would be nice knowing it meant more than lust. So I told Jason that things had changed and I am starting a relationship with someone. He was cool with it, no hurt feelings on any side. Mind you he said that had he not just gotten out of a long term relationship we could have been more and that I was more than just flesh to him which burned me a little but whatever. So yes, we're cool, yay that was easy. Platonic friendship it is. Lust is in easy abundance if you're only looking for that.
Yesterday I was busy with giving massages to a few friends, trying to read homework and getting slammed with a killer sinus headache. Sometimes I wonder if a sinus headache is at all similar to the feeling of an Egyptian removing your brains via nostrils. Ugh.
So today dawns and I go to breakfast, congratulate my friend Nicole for finally beating five hard players at Magic cards and in the process find out that Jason is already moving on to prowl her. I am not surprised (he is a big flirt) and I warned her of possible motivations. I headed up to the library and got into reading about the start of World War II and was completely enthralled for the time being.
I did take a moment to ninja-hug Matt when I saw him in the computer lab and could feel the happy glow of surprise come off him. He reciprocated the act later and looked at me with this expression that just made me melt a little. Uber forking sweet.
So yeah...life is freaking GOOD! Definitely appreciating this load of good karma. :-D
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