AS I recollect the day's events, the events of the past week, I am reminded of how insignificant these things are in the great scheme of things.
I met with a person this evening, who told me...."one step at a time"...and some offers of assistance have been made known to me......a very small step, but a regularly occuring source of help, he told me.....well, any offers of help at all are a huge significance to us....
We are faced with coming up with $924.57 for the first month of TYKERB. I have to go back to the drugstore and get the Xeloda...that CoPay was $480.37 and then get the 150 mg. tabs with a $145.00 CoPay...next month, we have to come up with $850 CoPay....and the next we will face when it comes along. I am most worried about losing the van, it is our ONLY dependable mode of transportation now, and I just paid an insurance premium....power bill...have to come up with rest of monthly bills....and first of month, start over again.......but I am taking "one step at a time"....that is the way things work out. I just have to remember that.....
Cathy is trying to remain focused, and keep her body at peace....I tell her to let me do the worrying...I am healthy as a horse, so she should let me shoulder that responsibility....
I wish most we had friends who came by, called us, or just emailed us....most folks have just gone on with their lives....and I know they have jobs, families, etc....but we do miss not having close friends come by, or call...I try to stay in touch with folks...it helps me to stay on an even keel...
This is very hard to deal with....I am so worried what we will do for a home....we have a "less than ideal" situation here....we pay absolutely high rent, and nothing ever gets repaired...it may get "patched over" but most things are in ill repair here...things were promised to be repaired months ago...almost a year ago...and still are just "as they were"....I don't have the energy to fight with her on anything....I just let it ride....what else can I do....I don't want anyone writing to any papers, or to anyone else about it...we will handle things ourselves in our way....I just needed to vent....
Folks, be sure and make preparations to ensure your future...cancer can strike anyone at any time...just be sure you have covered yourselves....insurance is NOT enough....when you least expect it.....this ugly disease strikes...and it will make you....take one step.....at a time....